A sleepy girl is a grumpy girl

Had a great deal of fun and crankiness with 12A07 pw group 1 yesterday night at changi airport t3 hahahahaha and I’m now so sleepy without proper rest for > 24 hours so I’m going to sleep now and maybe I’ll update later. Maybe.

And anyway sometimes I remember so many stuffs and details about people and events it’s ridiculous how I can’t do the same thing academic wise.

GOODNIGHT/MORNING/WHATEVER ALL

Today is one of such

There are days I ask myself why did I choose what I chose then among all the other decisions I was given, which let me end up where I am now, as what I am.

There are days I ask myself why didn’t I choose Innova Junior College where there are so many familiar faces around and I need not worry about not finding someone I can have lunch with when no one has the same break as me.

Even though I may like to be alone at times but being here makes me like it even more. And this fact scares me.

There are days I ask myself why am I thinking this way, why am I acting like this, what caused them, who caused them.

And what are the things which matter most.

Sometimes I ask myself what do I really want, for the future is seemingly bleak now that I look at it. It is just there for me to paint, but what I’m holding onto right now is just a pencil and I’m not doing anything with it.

Who am I exactly, I ask myself whenever I find myself being another person accordingly to the environment and the people around me.

Some days, I just want to lie on my bed and fall into a deep slumber, not caring about the things occurring around me.

there’s a time for everything

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;

4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

9 What profit hath he that worketh in that wherein he laboureth?

10 I have seen the travail, which God hath given to the sons of men to be exercised in it.

11 He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.

12 I know that there is no good in them, but for a man to rejoice, and to do good in his life.

13 And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the good of all his labour, it is the gift of God.

14 I know that, whatsoever God doeth, it shall be for ever: nothing can be put to it, nor any thing taken from it: and God doeth it, that men should fear before him.

- Ecclesiastes 3 : 1 – 14 (KJV)